If I got someone pregnant I would be a millionaire. I would sell that story to Time. Then the government would put me in a glass observation room for the rest of my freakish life.
If I got pregnant? I don't know. I have never thought about getting pregnant on accident. That is just not a real possibility in my world. I would keep the baby. The other two options are not options in my life. I would be angry and sad over losing the life I have planned. I would cry and hate what was going to happen to my body. I only want to give birth to one child. The only way I want to keep two is if the ex lets me have the first born.
I think though that a tiny, very stupid part of me would be happy. Babies are wonderful, and I love being a mom. Then, becasue self preservation and happiness are sorta important to me, I would nurture that tiny feeling until I became happy and excited about bringing another life into our family. It wouldn't be the same though.
Imagine the two kiddos comparing stories. Girl child knows how hard we worked to have her, and how much we wanted her in our lives. She also knows I don't want another baby. I tell her she is all I could ever want and I don't see any reason to do it again. That is a lot of back peddling. Mommy changed her mind? You just weren't enough anymore? Ugh. No thanks.
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