I have mixed feeling about this

I am not just talking about the quality of the picture either. If you want better pics, buy me a good camera that can email shit. Until then I will probably just continue to rock my shitty camera phone. Sorry.

The item up for consideration is the ring itself. Specifically the band on the top. It was a gift for our 10th wedding anniversary. It fits my wedding ring profile and my finger perfectly. It fits me, it came from an antique shop, because I cannot stomach the diamond mining industry, but I still want the real thing. It is perfect and lovely and I have wanted one since we were married.

Not that I didn't want my wedding set. I picked it out. I loved it. I still do. I just wanted a band for our 10th. Like an achievement. I am a gamer, I like achievements. Maybe I just knew it would be hard to get here. And it was. Which is part of what makes me feel off about the ring. Like I didn't earn it. Cheaters don't get achievements. It is so 'everything i ever could have wanted' and I know I have not been the fantasy wife.

So there is that.

Also, when the husband gave it to me he was really happy. Not just because I loved it, but because he said he wouldn't be embarrassed when I showed my ring to people. That makes me sad. He says the size bothers him, and I know men stress about size but really, in a diamond? Isn't that the womans job?

My wedding set is the one thing about me and mine that I have never questioned. I hate tacky displays of possession and truly feel a wedding set is a sign of love, not of wealth. I don't care that the stones are smaller than many women want. I am not many woman, and I could give a flying fig less about how many months salary a ring cost. So that brings me to the other issue. I don't want people to think I wanted this ring because I was ashamed of my wedding set.

But I still want to show off my anniversary ring. Cause its pretty and even though I'm relatively grounded, I'm still a girl and I do love shiny things. And we made it. And that feels good. So if I show you my ring, I'm not bragging about the ring. Just the marriage. Glad we cleared that up.