Saturday, January 22, 2011

flame... flames... flames on the side of my face, breathing, breath... heaving breaths... heaving...

and i quote.

my mom - "i have to change my will, to put baby girl on it. it's not a lot, maybe 90 thousand. i just want her to have an easier time than you did."

me - "yeah."

really, what else could i say. "hey mom, I know it is your money to do with what you want, but if you are going to leave it to anyone, how about the person you made struggle her whole life, maybe as an apology or something."

i already am providing an 'easier' life for baby girl. she won't have to have a job at 13 just to get clothes or a year book, or money to see a movie. her college will be paid for, her future is fine. because i am not counting on anyone else to do it for me. not some retirement fund, or some man, or my mothers eventual death. i am taking care of it, because as a parent, that is my job.

what is not certain is my retirement, or my ability to pay my house off before then. because I am taking care of my child first. so once again mom, thanks for nothing.

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