its been crazy, and long, and stressful.. . . the ex came up. she is as lovely as ever. she brought my kiddo, she is 13 and sad and kinda emo, but in a truly sweet and lovely kind of way. it was rough when the ex was here with her. the mother daughter dynamics are tough for them i think. i made my usual plea to get custody for a year, it was again denied. after she left we went shopping and actually had fun, she told me she loved me and kissed me all the time. then she got sad for her friends and wanted to go home. its hard for her that i work all the time, and she had grown apart from the friends she made when she lived here. i put her on the plane and cried.
but its ok, becasue she texts me almost every day now, and that is wonderful. . . while the ex was here she started hitting on me again. . . that was hard but that part is done for both of us and we both know it. i think she just misses that conection that teasing relationship. . that kind of longing is hard, i know. but no. done.
god i want to keep that kiddo. she is smart and funny and so very sad and listless. i know its the age in part, but we could provide so much for her. . ugh. still she belongs with her mother so ok, fine.
still, lame
hmm, what else. ive been working less, and spending more time with my family. thats good, i dont want to miss baby girl growing up. and my marriage is good, which i havent been able to say in awhile. i started a weight loss competition and i won this week. i lost an insane amount of inches. . . i still have about a million more, but im FINALLY on the right track. . .
and that is all. thank you and good night
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